Art

"Against a bright blue sky, clouds billowed up into a feast of white radiance. In my whole life, I have never been so deeply impressed by a mingling harmony of white shapes and forms such as I saw this day. If you could gather together all the froth and champagne bubbles that have flowed so abundantly at moments of celebration in the course of human history, it would be nothing compared with this sight..." AHAE

This photographer's work in on display in Vanderbilt Hall in Grand Central Station. It's absolutely breathtaking and wraps one immediately in a sense of serenity. Even in Grand Central Station, even in New York City one can find ten minutes to take a deep breath and just sit and look- even if it is "through someone else's window."

This collection of photographs, Through My Window, is a small sampling of the over one million photo's taken within a year, through the very same window in Korea.

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This exhibit spoke to me.

When I think my writing doesn't matter, or affect anyone I am wrong. I am sure that taking picture 100,000 or picture 738,344 that this artists may have asked himself "what does it matter, is this a good idea, how will this be different than the artists before me?...."

My art is for myself.

It's for my soul and,

it is for so many others too.

At least I'm not a telemarketer

I got my engagement ring back on Saturday. This past Saturday. It was promised to me on August 16th. But now I have a brand new setting and my finger feels much better.

My bloodwork came back normal

FREE carrot cake cupcake just by whispering "twenty-four karats" at Sprinkles

Sunshine and no rain- and more fall like temperatures

A weekend ahead with nothing written on the calendar

Pumpkin Vitatops

$40 dress slacks on the sale rack at Banana Republic

A wonderful gym with great hours, intense classes and tremendous amounts of space for me to leap and bound

Burt's Bees Almond Milk hand creme which smells good enough to eat

Harvest Pizza for lunch on Friday (Pizza Friday's in the office) spinach, broccoli, red peppers, onions, olives on whole wheat crust.......... delicious, and it's free

My camera and journal and nice pens to write with. My shelves of books and lines from Walden that make me feel alive and want to scream, "Yes! Yes! Yes!" Scissors and rubber cement and pictures that inspire.

At least...

Overflow

You love me in the sunshine’s warmth on my shoulders, in the winds rustle of

the ginkgo tree outside my window,

Ocean waves methodically rolling

in and out

in and out

in and out.

Before all of these were created, you loved.

Before sands were poured from your hand and the mountains were shaped, you loved.

From dust you breathed life into man,

and to crumbs I will eventually return.

Walking along First Avenue at night sometimes the heaviness that I carry throughout the day seems to lift.

When I’m walking alone among the masses

Furrowed brow, zoning out, zoning into myself,

zoning inside to what’s safe and familiar and quiet.

But even there, deep within me, within who I really I am,

who I really long to be- I am not satisfied or enveloped in security

unless I call on you.

And, somehow in the headlights and streetlights and cigarette smoke escaping the lips of boys wearing backward baseball caps sitting in sports bars at 9:00pm –

the reality of needing to surrender to God’s grace seems to come into focus.

My prayer is to return

To realize the joy of my salvation

To live outward and not inward when I awake tomorrow

Cracking my eyes to the sound of sirens, car stereos, honking and clanking aluminum cans

You died so that I could become fully alive

To brake the chains and experience transformation.

And when I refuse to accept this life, this freedom, this purpose that you have for me

I’m saying your birth was for nothing

and so was your death.

I’ve been choosing to live in the shadows,

in the gray-

where the birds are scared to fly and

their song is a repetitions murmur

Make mine a life that matters

and a past that doesn’t.

Make all these things I do and say

an arrow pointing straight to You.