Holy Yoga Journey

$3,000

That is what is keeping me away from going forward this this thing that I deeply feel that I've been called to.
Well, that and a nursing toddler... I need to wean my child before I can go on a weeklong immersion in Arizona....

I went on a Holy Yoga retreat weekend (Jesus at the Core) in January 2013. The thing is, I was already pregnant at that retreat, I just didn't know it... So, all that I enjoyed and loved and really wanted to pursue was put on hold. So, here we are two years later and I still keep thinking about my experience and how I really might actually feel called to do this thing.

The training includes a 9-week webinar training that is two hours once a week, followed by a week-long retreat in Arizona. No kids. No spouses. And it's $2,895 plus the cost of the flight. People, I don't even have enough money for Christmas gifts this year.  I've got Camille a copy of Goodnight Moon under the tree and that's it. (Seriously, what kind of house is this without Goodnight Moon?? I think we all assumed someone else would buy it, or someone else had bought it, all the while my fifteen month old has never heard that Margaret Wise Brown classic. Horrors!)
And wouldn't that money be better spent on getting Chris a vehicle that runs?

Chris is still teaching math and holding down a job that he does not like. Boo.
AND, we are now leading worship at Calvary Baptist Church... praying about a part-time staff position. Which would basically pay the rent....

Sigh.

And Holy Yoga. So many people have these negative, preconceived notions. I wonder if it would be an uphill battle trying to convince people, "it's OKAY y'all"

Chris asked me if I wanted to do this to make money. And the answer to that is, "not really." I mean yes, with a yoga certification I could teach yoga anywhere. But more than that I see it as my ministry. A way to teach to bring edification and love and Jesus to people who are hurting.

So that's where I am with it all... I haven't put down a deposit. I haven't scheduled an interview. I don't know how I can take a two hour call once a week with a toddler. And I don't know who I can leave that daughter for a week since she still nurses.

But I want to be obedient. And if it's what God wants, it'll happen. In His time.